Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008

Guinea Pig

It’s been two months since I made my transition from a student to a “working woman”. OK, that’s a really ridiculous way to put it but yes, I am working for an NGO that works for the mentally ill and homeless.

The transition hasn’t been easy. I am still living in a hostel, although this one doesn’t have curfews but I have had to start things from scratch. Build my life around my ambitions. Make new friends. Start with a clean slate again.

Despite all this, there’s no regret about the decision I made. I was aware of the perks about living at home, getting a fat paycheck with a corporate job and settling into a comfortable tailor-made life. And I didn’t want any of that. I am NOT anymore nobler or wiser than the average man or woman on the street, but I think I made up my mind about certain things early on in life.

There was a point when late in the evening I went knocking on the doors of random houses asking if the owners were renting out their place along with a colleague of mine. Someone even told us that this was not very appropriate for young ladies. Ha. The apartment hunt proved to be futile but never in my life have I so stepped out of my comfort zone and enjoyed it so much. These small inconsistent joys coming my way thrill me more than a grand plan of life in motion (which I don’t have in any case).

I think it would suffice to say that I am happy now with what I have but that doesn’t make me content. It’s like I have only started exploring my aptitude, my desires, my incompetencies and my dreams. I hope to travel a lot this year, complain a bit less and learn a lot from this job. I hope to find someone who stays special even after the first encounter. I hope to finally learn how to fly a kite. And maybe not to topple over after the third shot of rum.

It will happen. All in good time.

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Monday, April 21st, 2008

Once again

Graduation passed without celebration on my part and before I could say my goodbyes, I found myself a job.

I am not sure how life will change after this but I will turn 23 soon. For the first time in many years, I am looking forward to being a year older.

The slate is clean once again.

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Friday, April 18th, 2008

Our Blood

That which binds, also severs.

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Saturday, April 12th, 2008

Orphan thought

“The corpse of a bird does not decompose in flight, but on the ground”

- Duala

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Saturday, April 5th, 2008

Marina x 2

We missed the sunrise. But not the white flowers on the ground. The ones that would gently whirr into the hands of the beloved. He who reads this not anymore. He who knows not how sorry I am.

The city at dawn. Going around on a bumpy bus ride that does things to me. Riles an emptiness and punctures my morning reverie.

Hold my hand and tell me we’ll be friends even when I leave. When I am gone. When I can wait no more at the bank gates and under the monstrous green of the trees. Or with the phone pressed to my ear listening to you softly breathe.

Coffee brings clarity. In a room such as this, now, with the lights turned off. Where I sit thinking about the smell of gecko blood and the seaside salt.

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